I'm sick

I'm sick...
I'm sick!
Maybe I'm sick of this?

I had nightmares last night bescause I haven't studied enough. I'm on the edge, I've had too much to do for too long. I'm tired in every way an dI never get a break. The only time I'm not doing things of responisbility is when I steal time to watch shows, all of them.. gilmore girls, OC, one tree hill, related, what i like about you, las vegas, veronica mars and the new star: grey's anatomi. It's my time to actually relax... even if it means I wont have time to do the things I should.


I've always put things off to the very last minute. But it's getting worse. I could do it in high school without a problem. I wasn't feeling so good but I passed and even had great grades. No I'm not feeling so good and the assignments are in another dimension. I usually pass but reall, I could do so much more. I'm a really clever person, I don't understand why I waste my assets. I'm wondering how long I'll last, when will I brake? Because I probably will. I see the indifference as a sign of me being in the wrong place... at least at the wrong time. I'm worn out to the point where I'm aboutr to stop caring and just ruin my life. I don't know what I need, I don't know what to do. I might need help.


I knew it couldn't last forever.. I just hoped the time wouldn't come so soon.