getting closer

It's getting closer
the day of all days
the day of my leaving
and it has dawned on me that it's real
I'm leaving
I get to go to Canada all by myself
take a break, start over

last night I was leaving them, the friends
(a great party, for which I'm paying today)
and I realised, that it was real
I've been botteling up all reactions and thoughts
there has been no room for any Canadian influences
and now I'm just free
all of the obligations, all of the crap piling up, it's over
some cleaning and some packing left
but I'm free
and you don't know what that is to me
I haven't owned my time for years
but now I have cut it all off
all shackles are off
I can start over
I can make choices

I don't mean to be dramatic
I think I need to write this to make myself realise that
the day has come
it's the Sunday morning after
it's the yard after the finish line

There's no obvious change
but there's change
and more importantly change to come
that happy life that people talk about
that easy life
I thought I'd try it



















My first Canadian money! Thank you Diana & Björn :)